liviebug66

I am defined by scars beneath the flesh Despite my struggles there is no release I am controlled by a grasp superior to that of the body I am free of tethers, of ropes, and of chains Despite the distance of I have travelled, I see you everywhere, in everything There is no weight upon my shoulders but a heaviness I cannot shake I am troubled with burdens past my years While my skin shines of youth, my heart is plagued with darkness I have been placed in a world of innocence in which I no longer belong What you have taken has worth beyond a price My eyes are no longer bright, my heart no longer light, and my hands no longer clean You are ha

I imagined that following falling in love came the rising of two lovers, unscathed. But when I fell in love with you, I fell alone. And I have yet to rise. I lie in a puddle of tears, with a mangled mind that's lost it's judgement, and despairingly holds the memories and thoughts of you. My broken heart hopelessly beats, desperately clinging to the idea of our love. Will you fall beside me? Will we ascend together adorned by the scars of our ungraceful landing? Or will I lie solitary, plagued by this incurable illness we call love?

The dust from her doorstep settles on mine, your feet it's strong vehicle. With footsteps fresh and as empty as your promises, your path is difficult to trace. If trust is key, you are not the matching lock, as you expect all doors to be open for you. Honesty is simply a meaningless word in your cunning vocabulary, as the lies gracefully dance off of your tongue. A woman for each arm, five lies for each truth, and a personality in as many sizes as a shoe; You will blow away as will the dust, along with the feelings I ever had for you.

As I prepared for departure, I focused on the love we share. Embarking on this journey of commitment and trust is all I what to do. My chest of drawers is filled of past memories, Memories of the life I had before our love. Locking these away is so feasible, so simple. Anything that reminds me of a life without you could be discarded. My luggage is filled of items with only you in mind. I descend the stairs on a cloud, dreaming of our lives together, To find the door closed, and you gone.

Each tear that falls reminds me of a time I thought you loved me. One after another, they fall. I attempt for these tears of sadness to mirror happiness for you, That you found someone else. Someone better. I cannot remember a life in which I did not love you. I realize now that the silent gazes that I thought glowed with affection were one-sided. My heart told me that our love is so deep no words need to be spoken, simply understood. Now I know that if love should be matched to any word, simplicity would not be it. My mouth could not speak words of love to you, for hearts other than ours could go cold, Why would hearts be cold in order

I sit in the gray as you pull me each way. It seems that your heart has a tendency to sway. The black has become a familiar place. The white, however, I can't seem to trace. Of its existence, I am quite sure. Perhaps it's mystery is apart of its lure. I will not accept the darkness you cast. I know this indecision cannot last. Until you have your certainty I will count the days, The days in which, I sit in the gray.

Why does my head rest on a pillow instead of your chest? Oh, how I wish to replace this quilt around me with your arms. A headband tends to my hair out of place, instead of your fingers softly pushing it behind my ear. My eyes have to search for you, as you are not beside me. I look to you with love and longing, but your gaze does not meet mine. How I have grown to hate wonder. I want to call to you, but silence kills the words I need to say. Will I ever know the feeling of your touch? Will your heart ever beat with a love for me as passionate as mine for you? Will we always be an imagination, and never a reality?

Let me hold you Let comfort be what you feel Let my lips kiss where your tears have fallen Let a look into my eyes undo the wrong you've seen Let the stillness of my breath replace the screams that have filled your ears Let your mind be filled with thoughts of us instead of the memories that have haunted you Let the walls around your heart collapse Let my love be all that's left

As the tree branches sway to tap my window, I close my eyes and fantasize they are your knuckles instead, Gently knocking on the window to steal my attention, To wisk me away and tell me you love me. As I sit alone and face judgement of harsh eyes, I imagine those eyes belonged to you, Watching me affectionately, Expressing a love too passionate for words. As I walk through the crowded room and my hand is brushed by a stranger, I dream it was no stranger at all, That you would wrap your strong hands around mine gently, Causing all worries to vanish, as I know I will be safe with you. As I see her in your arms, I pray somed

A complexion unadorned with the demons of society. Eyes with gentle waves that cleanse me of worry. Lips as delicate as the petal of a rose. A smile so bright the moon is full with envy. Laughter that fills my ears with the most beautiful of melodies. A soul of age, of wisdom, and of strength. A heart that pounds with love for you.